I Believe

It’s been an interesting week, one of those self-discovery weeks that brings things into a clear focus.

I started out last week feeling an ache in my heart that seemed to stay with me. The ache became a cloud, and the cloud a fog that wouldn’t lift. I talked a lot to my loved ones, prayed fervently every night, and decided to leave it to the Lord.

I had been working on a paper for my New Testament class and I turned to one of my favorite scriptures, John 14:16-20. Reading those verses as I sat on a balcony in the JFSB, I felt the cloud begin to lift. “I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you…the world seeth me no more; but ye see me: because I live, ye shall live also. Ye shall know that I am in the my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.”

I live a blessed life and  I needed to be reminded of it.

I was reminded when Aaron made a batch of pizza muffins on the night I didn’t have the will to cook.

I was reminded when I called my sister-in-law, Brianna, and felt the newly gained distance between us go from 644 miles to 0.

I was reminded when I got my first copy-editing test back and found out that I aced it.

I was reminded as I sat next to a friend during the football game and discussed how we thought our lives would turn out.

I was reminded by the warm embrace of my mom and dad.

I was reminded by the soft licks on my face by the dog who lives upstairs.

I was reminded by the thoughtfulness of strangers.

I was reminded by the sweet outpourings of love from those I care about, from friends I have cherished and others I didn’t know I had.

I was reminded by the warm hug I felt in my heart each time I got on my knees to pray.

I am reminded every day by the sun shining on my head and the assuring words of my professors and those who know me best.

“We are what we believe we are.” -C.S. Lewis
I believe I am the luckiest girl in the whole world.

2 thoughts on “I Believe”

  1. Rosanne Bailey says:

    Love you Sweetheart!

  2. Brianna Bailey says:

    Love and miss you Rachel! Call me anytime, and I’ll remind you how awesome you are and how great you are doing!

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